Sunday, January 08, 2006
So, as I've mentioned, I'm trying hard to stay strong. I think, as far as my behavior with the boy goes, I've been doing okay. But the consequence of putting up a strong face has been not so nice. The last couple days, I've taken to just hysterical crying jags, that just sneak up and overwhelm me, even if I'm in public. I had a doozy in the hallway of the mall at Hollywood and Highlands yesterday afternoon, just barely avoided one at the movies with my ex last night, and completely lost it coming home from the mechanics this morning. It's like a pressure-release valve or something. But I have to imagine that eventually, it is going to go off at a very inconvenient moment.